2024 Year in Review
All the things I didn’t post about… Costa Rica, mindset shifts, romance and my favorite tools and resources.
Does anyone else reflect on their year and immediately feel down on themselves for not doing enough?
No? That's just me?
I'm so happy I took the time to reflect on this year because it made me remember all the ways in which I grew. (It was so tempting not to say, "All I accomplished." Where are my overachieving recovering people pleasers?)
I do wish I would have shared more about my internal journeys, though. I shared a lot of content creation tips but I think it would have felt better to share about my internal shifts as well.
I constantly journal and work on my abundance and money mindset (Denise DDT Money Bootcamp is there for me year after year.) I realized I operate from a position of trying to prove how smart and professional I am. I don't exactly have words to describe why this is out of alignment...but it's not the vibe.
I also blossomed substantially in my romantic life. I've stayed single but realized the value I bring to other's lives. In the romantic space, I feel like an absolute goddess, like I can provide the depth of connection that makes people feel seen on a soul level. I also realized I've been queer this whole time. I've explored the world of k*nk, which isn't dark at all but full of some of the most respectful, communicative people I've ever met. And reading the book "Ethical Slut" was life-changing. I now see my life in two phases, before I read it, and after I read it...like when we talk about years in BC or AD. It's essentially an anthology of meaningful ways to relate outside the typical heteronormative, marriage-oriented romantic model.
I went to Costa Rica and it was so good, I cried. I could feel my nervous system freaking out, shouting, "bish! We don't just GO on boojie vacations to nourish our souls," and I had to cradle her softly and be like, "yeah, girl, we do. It's ok for life to be this good. Now be quiet and look out of the view from this private plane!" I had deep conversations with beautiful souls from all over the world. I learned about Human Design, which made me feel more seen than astrology, the enneagram, or any other system designed to know ourselves better. I also got to have some quality time, and a soul-strut session, with a person I really admire, Jon Hilstead, whose soul is so sparkly and iridescent.
For half the year, I was wrapped up in a custody battle which was a huge trigger for me and took me back to some really dark places. I consulted my therapist, tarot, and meditation looking for answers on what to do. Every time I did a tarot reading about this, the theme was always, "change is coming." The mediation went well and I feel that surrendering and coming from a healed place of "the Universe is always taking care of me," was deeply helpful. AND...I got permission to apply for a passport for Camille!!!!
Q4 was infused with more relational and romantic exploration, embodying the goddess even more. I really wanted to go to Costa Rica for a Tantric retreat...but I made the responsible choice not to go further into cc debt. Really, this is more mindset work. I come from a background of massive frugality and minimalism. It's my default to focus on finding coupons or buying the generic versions of everything. At the end of day, being communited to frugality may save me a few hundred dollars a year, and keep me in a state of lack, but using that same energy to find ways to expand my income, make more sales, can generate much more revenue that what I saved clipping coupons. This is a continual exercise for me, operating from my future CEO version instead of my past, perpetually poor, version.
Which is why I signed up for that collaborative book deal just after Thanksgiving! A friend I made in Costa Rica, suggested this publisher, Kate Butler, who is an author, coach and speaker. Everything felt "right" on our discovery call and I was motivated, no...obsessed, about making this happen! I had an investor, but he backed out. My obsession and open mind helped me manifest $2,500 in just a few days! (Note to self, keep working on the manifestation, intuition and mindset work because it literally turns me into a magnet for my desires!)
Also, I had several big, deep questions about my businesses this year that could not be answered by YouTube or my business advisor. I put out these questions to the Universe and received signs, the answers, in subtle ways. I want to deepen my connection to my intuition and commit to aligning my business with my inner knowing.
And in regard to operating from a CEO lense, I am obsessed with hiring a mentor who will help me build out my systems. That will be my next investment and I already asked the Universe for the $10,000 to make it happen in the next 30 days. Soon, I will report back and tell you how I did it. I have already hired a video editor and am committed to streamlining all areas of my business. Hopefully, he will edit all the reels for my clients so I can focus on providing white-glove service, learning, taking advantage of all the publicity opportunities that come from this book deal, and being present at home with my daughter.
I feel like my job is to go out there and live life in a trial-by-error sort of way, to live life in full-color, and report back to you! (Which is confirmed in my Human Design chart.) I'm working on leaning into my personal interests and lived experiences as a way to enrich my work and connect with others. The more we share, the more we connect. I know I am meant to give more to the planet than Instagram tips, but I'm not sure what, exactly. 2025 is all about bridging that gap.
Thank you for being on this journey with me. I wish you an amazing, abundant, aligned, adventurous, and amazing new year!
RESOURCES
Money Bootcamp by Denise Duffield-Thomas. Learn about your money blocks and work through them with practical exercises, guided meditations, visualizations, group calls, debt pay-off calculator. There is always more here than I ever need.
Human Design here. No affiliate links, just a resource I like. You can ask questions on the free version of Chat GPT if you still have questions about what your chart means or how to plan your life around it.
